Various Possesive Drabbles

Yin Again


Xander was wobbling on his feet, but he didn't dare fall. Not because Spike would be angry, because Spike would be angrier. So, he clenched his fists and clenched his teeth and stood, trying not to think about the bruised ribs and the lump on his head and the part of his brain that was telling him that his wrist was pretty close to broken. He ignored the sizzling line of pain across his chest from the demon's claws and the stinging sensation from the place on his shoulder where its shark-like hide had scrubbed away a few layers of skin. Xander held his ground and listened to Spike rant.

"What the hell were you thinking, Xander? That was a bloody Axenarthene! You're just damned lucky it didn't bite you - fuckin' things are poisonous. Doesn't that triple-damned Watcher tell you morons anything about the beasties you're going up against?" He spun, pacing and smoking, and Xander had to look away, because the movement was making him dizzy - dizzier. "It could have had you in a second," Spike said, gesturing angrily with his cigarette. "One scrape from one tooth and you'd have been writhing on the ground with your blood turning to acid and your skin melting and your eyeballs turning to soup! What the bloody hell is wrong with you, Xander?"

"I'm...sorry," Xander's voice came out low, almost a sob. He didn't know what else to say. The Axiswhatever had been trying to eat Willow, and she hadn't been able to get a spell going in time and there was no way Xander was going to stand aside and let his oldest friend be turned into snack food, no matter how pissed it would make Spike. And it had. Made Spike pissed. Very pissed. Xander looked into Spike's very pissed-off face and was happy to see the narrowing of his field of vision that accompanied passing out. Problem solved.

When he woke, he was in his own bed, snuggled down into his own pillows and blankets, with his own vampire sitting in a chair by the bedside. Brooding. Xander's mouth was dry, and he turned to look at the bed table. Spike saw him and picked up the glass of water there, angling the straw so that Xander could drink. After half the glass was gone, Xander leaned back and cleared his throat.

"No," Spike said. "Don't speak." His voice was quiet, but steely, and Xander knew better than to disobey. Way better. He nodded instead.

Spike moved to sit on the bed at Xander's side and started running a single cool finger across the injury sites, now neatly bandaged. He ran the finger through Xander's hair to lightly caress the lump on his head.

"This head is mine," he said, eyes tracking his finger as it moved through the mink-brown strands. "It's pretty thick, but it's mine. I like it the way I found it - no bumps or bruises, no shiners or bloody noses, no bruises on the jaw or cuts or scars. It's beautiful, and it's mine."

Xander took in a shaky breath and let it out, then nodded.

"That's right," Spike said, moving his hand to Xander's chest. He traced the bandage that covered the cut and lightly swept over taped ribs. "This chest is mine," he said, his voice still commanding and detached. "The skin and the muscles, the hair and the bone - all mine. If it's to be marked, I will make the mark; if it's to be bruised, the bruises will be from my lips, scratches from my hands. It's mine."

Xander nodded again, remembering exactly how much he loved the marks made by Spike's evil, passionate mouth.

Spike's hand moved to his shoulder, over the bandaged abrasion, and then down to his splinted wrist. "My arms, and my hands," Spike said, still not looking at Xander's face. "These arms are strong, and they do what I tell them. They hold me at night and they wrap around me, or they get tied to the headboard or stretched out in front of me. These fingers touch where I tell them to, and they wait when I tell them to. They twine with my fingers and touch me. They move inside me. They're mine."

Xander nodded.

Spike's hands swept over Xander's hips and thighs, rougher on the uninjured areas, making Xander shake and squirm. "This body is mine," Spike said. "This brain, this heart, this soul - all mine." Xander listened as Spike pulled in an unnecessary breath, letting it out slowly. "I know, Xander," he said. "I know that you love your friends and you want to help and you can't just stand back. I get that, but it scares the hell out of me." Spike's hand swept up to rest over Xander's thudding heart, then inched up to his neck and stroked there, over the pulse point.

"You can, you know," Xander said, speaking for the first time.

"Can what?" Spike asked, frowning.

"If I ever get hurt and there's...there's no other way, you can turn me." Xander curled his unhurt hand over Spike's fingers. "I've already talked to Willow about it, and she's working on a spell that doesn't have the happiness clause."

"You...I...but," Spike stammered, staring at Xander in surprise.

"Even if I don't get hurt, I want you to do it. Not now, though." Xander kept his voice quiet, and he stroked Spike's fingers with his own.

"When?" Spike said, his voice almost a gasp.

"I figure right before I start looking older than you," Xander said. "Don't want people seeing us together and thinking I'm some sort of cradle robber." Spike didn't respond to the joke, and Xander could see the emotions playing across his face. He raised his hand to the back of Spike's head and cradled the nape of his neck, where the hair curled gently.

"I'm yours, Spike," Xander said. "Forever."

"Mine?" Spike asked, voice trembling.

"Yours," Xander replied. He pulled Spike down, and he wasn't all that surprised when the face that came to rest gently on the uninjured side of his chest was wet.

Turning To

It's all new. He's never done this before. A hundred and thirty years and countless bodies drained, yet he's never seen fit to share the borrowed blood that animates him to build a new machine. He'd considered it - yes, many times. He's easily attracted, like a magpie he follows the shiny, wants what glitters. He thought for a moment about turning Buffy. What a fearsome creature she'd be, freed of her earthly bonds and mortal restraints. But something held him back. There are some lines that shouldn't be crossed, and that was one of them.

The others had potential, but the Sweet and soft and loving - the demon would take them and make them something wrong. The Watcher, maybe. Wouldn't that have been a slap to the Council? And the dark stain of chaos on that mixed up soul, part librarian, part mage, part rebel without a clue - he would be beautiful and malevolent, but Spike doesn't want a creation to fear.

At his center, Spike wants a companion. Not a mistress like Dru, who ruled him with iron fist and razor talons and sharper tongue and fevered insanity and the cage of love and need and dependence. He stupid, as human as it sounds, he wants his other half.

Choosing the boy was easy, once he learned how to look. Big and dark, the perfect compliment to his slight paleness. Innocence and bravery and loyalty - keeping two out of three ain't bad. So much beauty and pain, ready to be remade into something magnificent and brutal. But here, in his bed, it's anything but. The lights are low and they lie mouth to mouth, hands at rest. Their kisses are soft and gentle, their tongues clever and knowing, sharing breath and unspoken words until it's time.

Death comes sweetly to Xander Harris - more than any child of the Hellmouth could ask for; all that he could want. His blood flows like a sluggish river, and Spike makes it last, savoring the taste, the feel, the heady emotions of love and want and trust that slide over his tongue to bind them and pull them down, swaddling them in a single skin and making them the same. Xander's strong heart slows, and it's music; the overture before the symphony, the solemn beat of a sentinel drum. It slows and slows and, just before it fades away, Spike opens his own jugular and pulls Xander's head down to complete the circuit that makes them real.

They lie connected, because Spike won't have it any other way. He won't leave his dark creation, won't consign him to the unknown, even for a second. Mouth to neck and legs entangled, Spike holds and waits - waits to see what he has wrought.

He listens and waits. He marks the passage of time, the rising and setting of the sun they'll never see. Then, light as the wings of dragonflies, he feels it. He feels the connection between them open, and he feels the full spectrum of Xander's want and love and need, reflected through the prism of his own, magnified and shared. He feels the prick of needles at his throat and whispers, "yes" before bending his head to taste, to drink, to know.


He could remember being human. His eyes snapped open and it all came back in a rush - like a montage in a cheesy movie, only he couldn't decide on the soundtrack. Oh, wait - Beck. "Loser." Perfect song. Doughnut-fetcher, coffee-seeker, butt-monkey, Zeppo; Cordy's dildo, Buffy's slave, Willow's charity case, Giles' annoyance, mom and dad's waste of time and air and sperm. Heh. I'm a loser, baby, so why don't you kill me.

"Spike," he whispered, sibilant through fangs.


The End

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