Yin Again


Jesus, it's hot. It's Africa hot out there. California is supposed to be sunny and beautiful, not this scorched-Earth, Save-The-Children commercial, surface of the sun kind of hot. Leave that for places like Phoenix and Georgia and Mercury. It's so hot that Xander's hair is soaked. Not just the fringe that flops over his forehead, or the tips of the too-long waves, but all of it - dripping with sweat that prickles up from each individual hair follicle to run in momentarily icy rivulets across the heated landscape of his scalp before they join with the rest of the hot sweat to just be gross and make him feel dirty. Dirtier.

Gypsum wallboard. It's heavy and when cut it makes this fine, white dust that gets everywhere. The dust hits the sweat on skin and forms a shell, resting suspended until the sweat soaks the dust and makes a thin, slick mud. Then it dries and cracks and, what do you know, back to the scorched-Earth image. So, there's gypsum/sweat mud flakes all over the upholstery and the seat's gonna smell like an armpit, but Xander's finally home, and that's enough for right now.

Inside the apartment, there are cool things. Beer, but at the moment, a tall glass of ice water sounds better. There's air conditioning, too, and that sounds like heaven. Clean, crisp sheets, and the water in the shower when you nudge the handle just two degrees off center toward the big blue "C" and the warmth gives way to the barest edge of the cold. There's also ice cream. It's vanilla, the kind with the tiny black flecks of vanilla beans in it, and there's nothing better than sliding it off of the cheap stainless steel spoon that frosts over because the ice cream is so cold.

Xander stops in front of the door, savoring the moment. When he opens that door, the cool air will hit him. It will strike fast, the sudden rush like an exhalation. The tendrils of cold will wrap around him and draw him inside. It's dark in there - the curtains are drawn, and it's like a little cave. With cable. And a vampire.

The vampire is actually the coolest thing in the place, in more ways than one. Xander wonders if he can get inside, get cleaned up and get into the bed without waking Spike. Sleepy Spike is a wonder to behold. Or to be held. His body is rock-hard but strangely slack in sleep - he's almost like a poseable doll. His skin is smooth and taut over muscle and sinew, and he feels like Xander imagines dolphins feel. The cheekbones are not an anomaly - there are other places where the bones show through in that alarming and alluring way - the hipbones, collarbones, shoulder blades and knees. At the base of his spine, the curve of bone behind the ear, the hollow at the back of his skull where the top of the spine nestles under the protective flare of the cranium.

Xander opens the door and absorbs the cool air through whatever pores are still unblocked by gypsum mud. The sudden rush of cool makes him dizzy, but that might be the fact that much of his blood has pooled low in his body in anticipation. He strips off his clothes in the kitchen, because the work clothes are just too disgusting to go anywhere not protected by tile. Padding naked to the bathroom, he resolutely does not look at the bed, does not look at Spike, does not see one perfect, pale leg crooked outside the dark blue sheets, does not see the unruly mop of curls half-obscured by the pillow.

Because seeing those things leads to badness. The viewing of those things leads to hot, sweaty sex and probably having to throw the sheets out, because there's no telling what happens when gypsum/sweat mud meets up with other bodily fluids, though he's thinking it could possibly be a new hybrid form of cement. Those thoughts lead to having to, at some point, listen to his beautiful, sensitive, narcissistic vampire whine about smelly humans and dust in the bed and assorted other things he'd rather not deal with. Xander is hot and he's tired and he wants his way. His way will be had.

The shower is everything he'd hoped, cool and refreshing but short, because his hard on won't flag, his pulse won't slow and the brutal, sharp edge of need is pressing him forward; pushing him through the curtain and out to the mat to dry off inadequately, to hurry to the side of the bed.

Xander grabs the bottom of the sheets and starts to slide them away from Spike's body. The vampire is lying mostly on his stomach and he has one leg cocked so that Xander can't miss the shine at their juncture. Before he knows that he's made a move, tanned hands and knees bracket the cool alabaster body and the head of his cock is pressing against the smear of shine and inside.

They both exhale loudly and freeze until Spike's body clenches once around Xander's cock, and the small muscles in the human's arms start to shake from the strain, almost at the exact same moment. In one smooth motion, Spike turns fully onto his belly and Xander drops his weight onto his elbows and plows into the body before him. He's all the way in, and so reluctant to pull out that his strokes are hard and shallow, animal in their ferocity.

It can't last; it won't. It doesn't. Xander comes silently seconds after Spike, and falls heavily, spent, on top of that cool dolphin-slick body, panting. He catches his breath and lifts his weight up, pulling out as slowly as possible, knowing that the vampire will make that tiny, soft whimpering noise he makes only at this particular moment of loss. The sound comes, and Xander holds there, body suspended between his hands and lets the sound roll around his head for a moment, then heaves himself to the side to stare at the ceiling and let the cool waft of air conditioned air chill him and make tiny hairs stand up all over his body.


There's a lot to be said for air conditioning. It sucks all the humidity out of the air and makes the cold crisp and sharp. Sometimes it burns the inside of Spike's nose it's so dry. Burrowing under the blankets is a good defense - the vampire as den animal, curling in around a pillow that still smells like Xander. The moment the human slips out of the bed, Spike finds the exact position the warm body held and fits himself into it like a corpse inside the chalk outline at a murder scene.

The warmth eventually fades - his body can't hold heat, but he stays awake to savor it until the last tiny tendrils dissipate, leaving him cool and alone. He sleeps too much at night now, so his mornings are often spent riding the edge between sleep and wakefulness, hovering in that hazy place where movements are slow and thoughts are disjointed. He surfs the waves of dreams, dropping in and flickering out at random, and he rarely remembers anything specific, waking with vague feelings of half-forgotten emotions.

It's hot outside. He opens the blinds from the protective shelter of the doorway and lets the sun shine in on the sofa. After a few hours he closes them again and hurries to fall and stretch his body out on the sun-warmed fabric - more like a cat than he'd ever admit. He misses the smell of sunshine. Luckily, Xander brings that home with him.

Spike can hear Xander's heartbeat - the boy is standing outside the door like he always does. The vampire can smell sweat and sunshine, dirt and construction debris. Xander always waits outside the door for a moment, delaying the sensation of the cool air that awaits. Spike loves this hedonistic streak - he has it himself. The stab of denial makes the reward sweeter. Most humans don't get that, but his Xander does. The thought makes him shiver and pull the sheets a little closer.

Xander's inside now, undressing in the kitchen, so Spike arranges himself for effect. He knows it; Xander knows it - neither cares. It's another form of foreplay, another little denial. Spike can feel Xander's eyes on him, so he lies perfectly still. To move would break the spell, and Spike knows how he wants this to play out - breaking the spell is not an option.

Xander's in the shower, so Spike reaches out to the bed table and removes a battered tube. He holds it for a moment and smiles, then flips it open and quickly prepares himself. The tube is replaced, and he arranges his body as before, except that one leg is bent a little further. The shower turns off, and Spike schools his features into the slack pose of sleep.

Xander grabs the bottom of the sheets and starts to slide them away from Spike's body. In a lightning-fast move, the vampire is bracketed in heat and the head of Xander's cock is pressing into him, breaching him, inside. They both exhale loudly and freeze until Spike's body clenches once around Xander's cock, both fighting and welcoming the intrusion. In one smooth motion, Spike turns fully onto his belly and Xander pushes down, filling and stretching him. Spike bucks back and claws at the sheets. Xander doesn't give him time to adjust, just takes and takes, and it's perfect.

It can't last; it won't. It doesn't. Without a touch or coherent thought, the vampire's cock fills and then empties onto the dark sheets in long, almost painful pulses. Without a sound Xander slams inside and fills Spike to bursting with his hot, slick release. They lie together for long moments, and Spike tries to absorb the heat that is inside him and around him. Xander lifts up, and Spike tries desperately to suppress the sound; the whimper he can't help making as Xander's heat is withdrawn. Warmth and weight fall away then, and Spike feels the cool air flow over his body and shivers lightly.

The End

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