When You Lie Next To Me
When you lie next to me, here in the dark, I forget. I forget all the times I have hurt you and you me. I forget trying to kill you. I forget how different we are, dark and light. Soft and rough. Human and vampire. I forget that you are supposed to be sucking my blood out my veins, instead you suck my brains out my cock. I forget all of that, it's not important, here in the dark.
Oh pet. What twisted little thoughts keep you up at night? When you lie next to me, I can hear them skittering around inside your skull. Should be sleepin, all fucked out. Not worrying about anything. Don't you know I'm gonna take care of you? I forget sometimes that you are supposed to be dinner, not desert, here in the dark. When you share your warmth, your heartbeat. Your life.
I remember the first time I looked at you, saw beyond the white hat. Saw into those gorgeous eyes. Thought they were just brown for the longest time. Daft git that I am. They got golds and greens and browns. All swirled together like one of the witches potions. Magic they are. And when you look at me, with your heart splayed open for anyone to see, I drown. But I see the fear there, the waiting for disaster. Don't quite know how to tell you this, pet, but you got me for as long as I can hold on.
When you lie next to me, I can smell your tears, hear your heart speed up. I know I'm the cause of that, but I don't know how to fix it. Wish I could rip out the hearts of every bugger who ever hurt you. Have to do mine last, though. Have I ever told you I'm sorry? Begged your forgiveness? Right. Big Bad will just put that on the top of his list of things to do. Right after takin' a morning stroll to the watcher's place. Have I told you I love you? With more than sweet kisses and gentle touches? Can't you hear it when I call out your name? When I'm buried so deep in your ass that I don't know where I stop and you begin? Can't you taste it when you lick the cum off my fingers? I taste it in your tears.
I know you cry sometimes, here in the dark. You think I'm sleeping, but I'm really just soaking you up. You spend all day in the sun, where I can't follow, can't keep you safe. But I get to bask in the warmth after you get home. Get to lick it off your skin in the shower. I can smell it in your hair, long after the scent of your shampoo is gone. The sun lives in the golden streaks tangled in dark curls. Could I be more of a ponce? Alarm is gonna ring any minute now, and you will be gone again. I'll miss you, worry about you. Check you over when you come back. Fuck you and tell you with every touch how much I love you. Easy to think them, when you lie next to me.